The line is set. Holding onto it, I try not to think about what I am about to do. A clip is painfully attached to my nose, tight as possible to keep the water out. Waves cover my face as I float on my back and I inhale deeply. I close my eyes and focus on my breathing. Slowly my fears of the unknown future dissolve, like clouds in the sky just before the sunrise. I take my last breath of air and dive into the deep blue. My mind is in a “flow” with no thoughts, no fears, no expectations. The sea color changes gradually from light blue to dark blue as I descend deeper and deeper. I don’t even feel my body anymore. I close my eyes and let the darkness swallow me.